Did you know that Jesus is so patient, kind, and always there? Well. As you know from part I, I am not perfect, nor will I ever be. However, I used to judge everyone, listening only to those I thought had the right. I did have a voice, just not the voice from God. When you have God's direction and voice, it doesn't matter what anyone says or does. You pray for them. Lead them through the word of God and worship with them. Listen to God's direction wherever he may lead you. 

I've been saved since 18. Many difficult paths. The one thing I realized is that I never surrendered it ALL to Him. I mean ALL, the truth. No deception. I was never healed from the deep traumas of my life. I didn't believe in "healing rooms", "prayer rooms," or the thought of having to really dive deep in the word. What, why would I need to do that? 

God is so Good. I surrendered it all to HIM. I mean ALL. NO more lies, destruction, hate, anger, or anything that was not of God. I had become so small, had no friends, was so secluded, and was depressed. Why? Because I was not surrendering to Jesus. 

Now, as a surrender of God, a meditator of God, a mighty prayer of God, and a speaker of God. There is only Joy even in the midst of sorrow. I am not better than anyone else. I just see everyone and everything in a different light. I asked God, what know? You gave me my voice, you gave me confidence, and you gave me the courage to do what is right in your word. I needed healing. So, I was healed of ALL my past traumas. I was given the ability to physically restore a relationship with my mom, on simple, hurtful words I held onto for decades, that she honestly never remembered saying. I became transparent in everything. I still fall short every single day. However, I pray it over, meditate in Him, and seek His guidance in every way. If I fall, I seek Him to help pick me up and LEARN from that fall. Being healed from all these things. Opened up the gates to what I really NEVER thought was possible. 

When you listen to testimonies. Always listen, which I sometimes, well, most of the time forget to do. Now I listen to only Jesus. Only his words. The best book of knowledge and hearing his words daily. God is speaking to you, to everyone who will listen.

There is something different about you when you give it all to HIM. It doesn't matter who believes you or not. It matters what God believes. He will show you every single day. When you and what you need. He will heal you of everything, not of Him. I just needed to fully let Him in. ALL THE WAY. All the way with no other agendas. Putting Him first in all things. 

Romans 9: 16-18,"So then it is not of him who wills, nor of him who runs, but of God who shows mercy. For the Scripture says to the Pharaoh, “For this very purpose I have raised you up, that I may show My power in you, and that My name may be declared in all the earth.” Therefore, He has mercy on whom He wills, and whom He wills He hardens." (NJKV)

If you are ready to leave your dark shadow, the valley you're in, the trauma you feel, the hate, the madness, anything not of God. The just cry out to Him. He is waiting for you. Waiting to put His loving arms around you. Psalms 2: 3-4, " But You, O Lord, are a shield for me. My glory and the One who lifts up my head. I cried to the Lord with my voice. And He heard me from his Holy hill, Selah."

I will be sharing my story, which is different than my testimony in other posts. Remember this is my story. How, I get to the path I am on today? Remember, the minute I accepted Jesus, he was there. Though you, the person, must put in the work.

Love to all, Blessing.